Mixed feelings

The air gets cooler and the leaves begin to turn.  There is nothing more lovely than a walk in an old neighborhood listening to the sound of the leaves crunching ever so often under the footsteps of people happily chattring.  I love fall and all the memories.  Our anniversary is coming up again.  I have mixed feelings about it.  Mostly I have good feelings from the memories of when we were falling in love, the memory of or wedding...  Then there are the painful memories.  Sometimes they can be pretty over powering, but mostly I'm coping okay.  It is definately harder this year than the past two years.  I'm not sure why exactly.  It could be just my head, but it could be grief.  I don't know.  What I do know, is that fall is in the air.  Children are excited about dressing up as whatever their hearts desire.  Homes are decorated with pumpkins and cobwebs and some how we are all delighted to be a little spooked.  Even though there is this looming ache in my heart, I'm happy to enjoy this fall with my son and our friends.  It has been a perfect as it can be right now.  :)